Thanks for coming through with words from the heart. There is no written explanation for us at the end of the poem today. So I will add a little story.
One day there was a king in Babylon who wrote a beautiful poem and he said tell me the interpretation or else...
The interpreters said, "Well first tell us the poem." The king said, "No. First tell me my poem and then tell me its interpretation or you are out of my kingdom."
I can not interpret your poem. If you were any other writer the poem means that you are having demands to create and publish content but no matter how hard you try it comes to unfinished work.
But to @d-pend who laughs at uncertainty and lives in a paradoxical metaphysical world this just means he likes writing poems. Now will you give pardon your lowly subject?