Wanna give you a huge jrb450 hug and say everything will be OK. My experience is that when you jump into the unknown- especially when the heart is involved- it's so hard to stay grounded. The longer you stay, the harder its is to make the jump. Time will tell how and when you land. I have thoughts of uncertainty around all the time and while distracting, I try and fall into the present.....I see you (not in that weird way).