i have a lot of rage within me these days and i’m not sure where it is stemming from. i break out in tears in the middle of a bus ride, i look into the eyes of another and feel this urge to hug them. emotional inhibitions and my emotionally stoic upbringing are falling apart. i’m not sure whether my emotions are good out in the open, especially the more negative ones. people are scared. when i find myself wanting to punch the wall, or throw things around, i want to crawl on the ground and melt into the soil. i would never want to hurt a being. but i end up hurting myself. i sink into a lull of self-loathe and fury at my own failings. why can’t i accept? why can’t i accept everything with an open mind and heart? why do i resist? why do i have such particular desires? why do i need to be in control? and shrug off control as self-defence whenever i feel threatened? am i threatened? by what? where the fuck are my telos. where the fuck are they. why am i so angry? at who, at what? i feel i have nothing to give out. yet at the same time, i know it’s not true. i have so much love and energy bottled up within, waiting to be unleashed. but not everyone’s prepared to receive them. and i should not feel rejected if they are not willing to receive it... now. pure love is eternal. it will always be there. it can’t be measured. it can’t be retaliated. forgive yourself. forgive. and try and understand and forgive everything, even when it’s painful.
learn to suffer silently.
learn to suffer in the moment.
these feelings are real.
these feelings have their own source.
passion burns, love heals.
we start with passion, we let go with love.
and they come in waves.
the only thing i have is this moment. right here. and my own heart.
beautiful heart. who listens, waits, loves.
in silence.
as a kindred spirit said, “chill”.
Beautifully put, the rage and anger we can all relate to but we need to be better human beings instead of falling in that trap. You have some serious skills which is evident on this post... Cheers 👍
Well done post thanks for sharing
I feel what your saying in the words of your poem, I often get those feelings myself. I just wish I could get that kind of upvoting on my posts.
Very nice, silent is a success and bless. Silence is a goodness silence is a soul of success.
i actually envy you...i've always been dreaming of having this skill
I feel it, keep fight yeah! I upvote your post, resteem your post and also follow you. I'll be glad if you do the same to me :) good luck
Thanks buddy, followed.
Thank you :)
:) I'm new to #Steemit and it really Impresses me to know that there are people as talented as you, who write works that have a lot of artistic quality.
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Great lines keep it up :)
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STOPYes i agree with suffer silently because we can hear our beating hearts only then..as it saying that don't worry i am beating only for you..nice poem..
Great post!
joker has upvoted and resteemed it!!!
regards - @imjoker!!
Nothing wrong with anger and rage.
They are human emotions.
As long as one does not hurt others or animals with it.
We all have these feelings from time to time.
If you want more insight into yourself you can search yourself
and try to find where it comes from.
That takes total honesty though even if you see things about yourself you do not like.
Embrace those parts as well since they tell you something about yourself and
that is very interesting.
After understanding you might get more insight into other peoples anger as well.
Nice poem = Upvote and a follow since I appreciate a human who asks himself questions :)
Man you what a post. You've put into words something I myself have never been able to describe. Thanks for sharing!
this is beautifully put @honeybee but one line that i think we should really address is
learn to suffer silentlythe rate of depression and depression related deaths are cause by this. people go through a lot and cant share their pains. it is not everybody that hold how to control emotions that they bottle up; this is a big risk.
this is really a beautiful piece. i applaud your work
Nice post
This right here is a monumental piece, it has so much depth & sincerity. Keep doing what you doing