falling for real?

they had an unconventional start.
then they had a conventional start.
the cyberspace created a medium, where they first communicated.
at the time, she had no real interest.
simply answering questions that posed no real meaning to them.
along came wild summer, that changed her life.
a different outlook, an alternative to her initial mentality.

she used to "fall in love" easily, screaming with delight at the slightest romantic gesture.
one could call her a hopeless romantic who was in love with love.
she was curious about the opposite sex.
and she used to let her guard down, exposing everything to less noble men.
they took advantage of her. they broke her heart.
but she never gave up on love.
she just stopped committing.

and now, back to the present affair,
finally boy meets girl. boy asks girl out. and girl accepts.
she realized that he wasn't "one of them".
he has a faithful heart, a childish air about him.
he was just as lost as she was.
when they got together a short while later,
he proclaimed, "you know you're all mine right?"
she merely nodded and gave in to him.
but her heart is still reserved.

she blames that her past relationships made her this way.
made her stronger, and less susceptible to the rotten disease of heartbreaks.
but secretly, she is simply afraid to give her heart to someone else.
because that's putting too much at stake.
her world could crumble when he decides to take a bite.
and she isn't willing to let that happen.
but the dimming flame of her belief that we are all searching for a soul mate in life,
had not been forgotten.

she wants to fall deeply in love.
and she is starting to believe, and know that she is slowly falling...
because every single moment spent with him makes her smile wider.
because whenever he comes over, she makes time for him.
because wherever she goes, she wishes that he could be there to share the experience with her.
because she enjoys talking to him, seeing him, listening to him, watching him.
because she finds blow drying his hair the most intimate act of all,
and she finds it fulfilling to her emotionally when she gives him something.
something tangible, intangible - doesn't matter.
she just has a powerful desire to give, to please, to learn, to create, to experience life together with him.

and the future can wait.
reality can go screw itself.
what is important, is brewing this feeling tonight.
how does she honestly feel about him?
that might remain a mystery for tonight.
all she knows is that she is falling harder and harder.
and her heart is becoming bigger and bigger.
one that is more capable of giving and loving.
and she is glad, as she steers towards the sunset,
and sails into an unknown territory...

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