Surreptitious Despair

in #poetry7 years ago

I remember when
I could feel
When emotion had meaning
Something I dined, not snacked on

Kindness used to be fulfilling
Anger used to be satisfying
Happiness was tranquility
Sadness was overwhelming

An adventure book would leave me yearning
A comedy left my guts bursting
My emotions meant something
I believed my dreams were simply reality waiting to happen

One day, kindness felt empty
Anger died
Happiness turned cold
Sadness became nothing

All that was left was regret
Pain became my constant companion
Emotions pulled me out of my darkest holes
Now I'm left to cope

I'm left to cope with the fact my abyss never goes away
I only fall deeper
I can't find happiness here
I can only force myself to forget how far I've fallen