My Missed Chances

in #poem7 years ago

I have traveled far and wide looking for her
She was the light that shines in the morning
Now, my days would be bright once again

When I had nothing, she was my everything
Now, I have everything but I feel lacking
My heart longs to be by her side, beating next to her

Serendipity, that’s what brought me to her
I had lost hope of ever finding her again
Until I caught a glimpse of something peculiar

I blinked my eyes, I wasn’t mistaken, it was her
I tried to come up to her but I didn’t know what to say
I panicked, I turned around and walked the other way

My heart was pounding, leaping in my chest
I decided to wait for the right moment to meet her
And finally spend the rest of my life with her

Days passed and I stood on the corner of the street
Same time each day, waiting to see her again
But she didn’t come, and I started doubting

Did I really see her or was it just an illusion?
Was my mind playing tricks on me out of desperation?
I should have walked up to her, no, I should have run to her

I was feeling anxious and I couldn’t shake the feeling of regret
My mind had been busy thinking about it when I realized
I had been given another chance to do what must be done

I saw her one day, sitting on the park bench
She looked just as beautiful as the day I first saw her
Without a second thought, I sat next to her

Her POV:

Serendipity, that’s how I would describe the moment
He took me by surprise, as if I saw a ghost from the past
I never thought I would see him again but here he was

He looked different from before, he changed so did I
All those years had made him look more mature
It gave him a sense of charisma that outlined his features

I was drawn to him like I was years before
He talked about the time we were apart
What happened to him and all that he went through

We shared a few laughs just as we used to
I shared him about my life, what I have done
But I knew, though he is here now, I can’t be with him

So I told him:

“I waited a long time for you
Five years, ten years, twenty years
I thought that you would never come

I had already moved on and built my life
I was happy, content with what I have
Why did you have to come back now?

Memories from long ago flooded my mind
I was filled with a rush that I had not felt in ages
But you are too late, I have already moved on.”

I was conflicted, torn, confused with this suddenness
I needed time to think through what just happened
Then he grabbed my shoulder and said, “It’s never too late.”

I said:

“Yes, a long time ago, I used to believe in fairy tales
I dreamt of my own happily ever after, with you
But reality doesn’t always turn up the way we expect it

I have a different life now and I can’t leave it for you
If you had only told me what you’re telling me now,
Things might have been different than they turned out

It was nice seeing you after all these years
But I’m sorry, I can’t do what you are asking of me”
I kissed him on the cheek, stood up, and walked away.