Explanation on thought process , what I wanna do and how I got my name

Hi, you can call me geko yes its spelt wrong ill get to it.

My real name is Nickolis. I am still young and live with my parents. With a lot to look forward to in life my mind try to go deep, so deep that its hard to comprehend things that I think about.

Pt. 1 What I think about
Not only do I think a lot about random things I also try and comprehend nothing, But not how you think about nothing. First I think regularly nothing means empty, black , maybe even lost. Then I wander into feeling nothing and tied with anxiety it takes me down a scary hole of feeling that I do not wish upon anyone. Trying to feel nothing makes me want to punch myself only because of where the idea of feeling nothing sparked... death. What does death feel like what happens and is there afterlife. I can say for certain but what I do know is that it's highly unlikely for there to an afterlife I still have faith that there is because the worst that can happen is there that there is no afterlife the idea of after death being an eternal darkness a senseless slumber of no return weather you fulfilled your duties or not it is what it is.

pt. 2 what I'm doing with my life and what I want to do
I have just joined Hive and working to possibly acquiring my first real following on here. I was introduced to mining then staking here on Hive. But I cant just do one thing my whole life. I want to be a wealthy person one day and I also want to do orthodontics to help people with their self esteem and self image to help make this world a happier place because when people are happy with themselves they can be an enjoyable person rather than miserable.

That is all I have today, more tomorrow!
Likes, comments and follows are all appreciated but not necessary

signing off
: geko

pt. 3 how I got my name (geko)
How I got the name geko. When I was eleven years old my cousins had just got a ps4 and I had gone to their house for a sleep over. that night after dinner we played on the ps4 specifically mine craft and I remember looking for a skin to wear other then the Steve skin and I scrolled into the battle and beasts skin pack and came across the gecko skin so I wore the skin for the night and that was it. when we woke up the next morning I decided that I wanted to make an account so I was brain storming names when it hit me 3 things did actually. I love that gecko skin, I'm a guy and I wanted to do Minecraft tutorials so why no other names other than gekoguy101 ? that is how I got my name