Death of a loved one always leaves that unfillable hole. The deeper the love, the deeper and wider the hole. I put up a video from 3 or 4 years back. I mention in it about having lost Gramps. We were like best buds. That hole will never be filled. I still feel the urge, for the briefest second, to give him a call and tell him about something... I dont have the answers, just know I really do care.