Struggling with anxiety in conformity:

I haven't been posting for 2 days, I'm back and I think I'm starting to like it since I can openly talk about everything.
Well, as the title refers I suffer from anxiety, it can affect me while at home or at a social meeting with longtime friends, no one can see it or feel it but I sometimes feel like I'm going to explode, my heart starts to beat very fast and dozens of thoughts run through my head, now it's better but sometimes I feel it coming, especially since I live in a place in which stays the same ever and ever, I can't explain the true nature of this place but it feels like and ending spiral of conformism, somewhere between fear and lazyness.
In 2017, I have to learn that sh*t just goes on and on and get's worse, by the way, I can't help but take it...
I'll drop this picture here, it's just a glimpse of how I feel most of the time...