It's very rare that people can talk about their fears openly. In an exercise that I'm conducting I'm trying to see what are people's greatest fears. Yeah, great conversation starter indeed :)
But here's my greatest fear - I guess in a more abstract way, a lifelong fear not the 'might happen tomorrow" kind of fear if that makes any sense - one that I keep returning to over and over.
Living my life without an original thought
I am terrified that all the sum of everything I ever thought or understood or said is just the pale sum of everything I read or what someone - a smarter, better informed, maybe more ingenious someone - told me. It's something that I am very keen to notice and I am always very impressed with some sort of thought innovation. What I mean by that is that I talk with someone and they say smth that is totally new and interesting ( at least for me), I'm trying to figure out if they reached this thought by themselves or are parroting something they've read/learned.
I guess this is a standard that is a bit unrealistic. After all, is anything "new" in this world?
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The last time I remember someone having a very novel idea is a friend in a discussion about A.I. We were talking about how A.I is a threat - or not!? - to humanity and how Elon thinks that and Google said that other thing and bla bla bla. As you can see, this is prime example of two people parroting. I'm being unkind as this is exactly how new thoughts and idea bloom, we need to start somewhere but in reality, despite the somewhat interesting subject, our conversation would have bored most of you who are up to date with the current discourse on A.I. But I digress..
Anyway, so he said something I did not hear anyone else say:
"I think that A.I fears are unreasonable. Imagine that an AI becomes self-conscious and analyzes the whole of existence. It's a pure rational machine despite the conscious, isn't it? It won't have a self-preservationist mechanism that makes us do stupid things like we do. So what would it do?
It's my opinion that it will, upon reaching a conclusion about the state of the matter, immediately self-terminate.
It's the only rationale thing to do and we, as humans, do not and can not do that because we must live on, procreate, and not die but if we were rationale..."
I mean, ok, it's bleak and maybe you do not agree but hey, it's original. I for one haven't heard this idea before! It sure put a nice twist in the direction of our conversation - that again might be trite if you are up to date with what Camus says and seen the last of Rick and Morty and stuff like that.
So what I mean is, did I even have an original though until now or do I seem to have because I'm well informed? I can fool some people but I can not fool myself. Nor do I want to.
On the other side, this is really the kind of fear that has no practical impact on your life.
I often think that I am still young and that I am still drawing dots. Everything I read learn or hear is a dot. One day they'll connect to reveal something original.
Maybe it's a dick.
Thanks for the post and very nice
#sweet
We choose to perceive.
We choose to observe.
We choose to acknowledge.
We choose to ponder.
We choose to internalize.
We choose to recall.
We choose to draw inspiration.
We choose to create.
We choose to share.
Or... for any or all of these... we may not.
The choice may be made on our behalf.
The task may be beyond our comprehension...
Or it may be merely discarded in reprehension.
Alternatively cast aside with apprehension.
It is easier not to try.
Parting thought. Ought the Earth to fret over its creation being based upon silicates, metals and gasses? Is it insufficiently creative or special due to the mundane nature of its components?
Do not fret. Aspiring to originality is enough.
HAHA! I loved the ending to this post.
What I had to think of when reading this is a thought I sometimes have.
Sometimes I say a sentence (however elaborate or simple) and I'll start thinking to myself 'Is there anyone else in the world that said that EXACT same sentence at the EXACT same time as I did?'
It's a weird hole to go into. Because it also makes you realize that we are probably all the same and not really unique yet somehow we are not the same and are unique.
And love that you are going down the slippery slope of feardomhood and opening up the deepest questions about it, because frankly fear is not talked about enough and certainly this makes it some kind of taboo subject that we'd like to keep hidden from everything including ourselves.
So good on you
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What if there are no original thoughts to be had!
you see! this is original!!!
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nothing is original and everything is original in the same time. for me is not a dilemma. of course, all the knowledge comes from somewhere, we read it, we hear it, but if you feel it, is yours. doesn't matter if somebody else said the same thing. doesn't matter if somebody else used the same words. we are all unique and our thoughts (although very similar) are only ours because me is only me and not anybody else.
i had a thought on fears some weeks continuously intensively. although, all my life i felt fear. and in the end i realized that my major root of fear is loneliness. being isolated, in the middle of dark, alone, without anybody to reach, with nobody around because nobody really exists in that world. just be alone in this emptiness called VOID. this is my major fear. but, oh, man. until i became aware of it it took such a long time and an incredible shamanic journey.
i really liked your post! i found it original. that's why i am commenting on it after 21 days :)))
nice to find you