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RE: Why do we seek approval? Why do we seek love from external sources?

in #philosophy7 years ago

You're doing great for your second language! Didn't catch that ;) And thank you! When growing up I was picked on by the neighborhood kids. For some reason I was the target, perhaps it was because I was the more loving one and had my heart on my sleeve kind of thing. I would be called many names and other things done to me, which lowered my self esteem/confidence. Took it to heart and believed most everything they said about me. My self value was very low due to that. I tried to ignore it and not let it bother me, but being young that's hard to do! Now that I'm an adult with my own kids I could care less what other people think! Just need to heal myself from the damage I took at a younger age.

Sorry for the rant! ;D

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Yea bullies tend to pick on the ones who have feelings so they make them numb... bastards. Sorry to hear that I wish someone was there to stop it, my friend and I were always defending the kids that were bullied.
I am glad you have a clear mind now and care only about kids and your sake! You will heal if you forgive! No, don't be sorry, thank you for opening up on internet, it's hard to do, I myself also did a post about my life :) Thank you very much, sorry for not responding I haven't been steeming lately had some shit going on

I would run to the parents and tell them what the others would do, but they brushed it off for whatever reason and wouldn't stop the other kids from doing wrong. After doing that a few times i would take matters into my own hands and resorted to pushing them and other minor things to shut them up. Once that happened my aunt started calling me a bully. Fighting isnt my thing. Never has been, but being young and unheard what is one supposed to do.... even after being picked on by the others i would always try to keep things fair among the kids during games or snacks we would get. Be the referee

From what I understood your aunt is either a toxic person or she just didn't know you defended yourself. Yea I understand, you gotta have your own back, neither do I like fighting but when you don't have anything else to resort to then just let it all out and send them to hospital :D
The strongest people are the one who got hurt, and still carry a big heart full of love to share, because they didn't break under bullies and toxic people. :) I love your personality thank you for sharing I really appreciate it :)