Plus, I wouldn't have learned what I did, and what I learned is important for at least some people in this world to know. I would be less compassionate, less pro-active and much less willing to help people that suffer. Restricting suffering does not cure the cause.

This knowledge is valuable precisely because it is unpleasant to obtain it. It is also valuable because it brings unity to everyone who suffers, which is everyone (though some are not yet conscious of it).

Some people try to find a meaning in their suffering. If there were such a thing, this would be it. However, I wouldn't call it a "meaning" but rather the positive effect of negative experience. The yang to the yin of persecution.

Thanks for sharing, I'm looking forward to reading more of your thoughts!