The tears began before I hit play and continued through this powerful performance. I am the survivor of suicide. My beloved mother killed herself at age 56, several hours after calling me and a long conversation where she told me much of what was wrong, but never said she was choosing to end her own life. Two of her favorite sisters had taken their own lives many years prior and that pain ate her soul. Although she had promised she would not follow them (years prior she'd made two failed attempts), she shot herself alone in her bed.

The song touches that deep cord. The things we say to ourselves in the night, those questions that we ask ourselves, that vacuous emptiness that nothing and no one can shake as we grapple with the loss of our beloved. I had asked her on the call if I could come in to town and see her because she was feeling so down. She said no.

Six hours later, she pulled the trigger and our lives were irrevocably changed.

I have found some measure of peace, but that is relative statement since the loss by suicide is one of the most painful to come to terms with.

100% upvote. Much love to you and comfort. Thank you for speaking out on this topic. I agree, it must be broadcast.
lean on me
a trouble shared is a trouble halved.