Fighting an endless battle doesn't feel good. I believe in doing the right thing simply because it is the right thing to do, and trust me, that can feel pretty awful at times. As for constructing a boogeyman, I didn't create racism. We as individuals contribute to persisting, but it is not something we individually construct. That is precisely why we shouldn't pretend it doesn't exist. It's bigger than one person, but we all participate in it even if we pretend we don't.