Freedom is coming

After a year of Chad laying down his flesh. After a year of Chad laying down his pleasures. The time has come for Chad to lay down one more. I have tried numerous times and spent close to $2,000 in 10 years to lay down my addiction two cigarettes. Never have I had joy in trying normally I want to kill everyone. But as a friend once said when your mind is made up it is so much easier. My Desire to be pleasing to my father. Life is like a box of chocolates you never know what you're going to get. If you close your eyes and open that box you can never guess which one has coconut feeling or which one has almonds. And if you're like me you don't like the taste of everyone just a few. And sometimes that chocolate will make you sick when you stick a flavor in your mouth you don't like. But we have to overcome that and try again and never stop until the entire box of chocolate is gone you will eventually find the one with the almond.

Today makes 8 days without a cigarette and my heart it's so happy so joyful. I feel like crying cuz I've never gone this far. I'm so proud that I serve a king that hears me. Even in my doubt because the chocolates never turned out the way I wanted. He still knows and still hears. So I want to say no matter the struggle no matter the tribulation keep your head up. Don't Look Down don't look to the left don't look to the right but look up. He loves you and no matter how many times you try don't quit trying. You will eventually find the chocolate covered almond. Thank you Yahuah. Shabbat shalom