Hello, dear Erika. I'm so happy to hear from you. Well, life goes on. Nick called today, he is worried... Nat is busy with preparation to her boyfriend's birthday (tomorrow). My mom isn't good. Her kidneys are almost failed. She made a lot of tests, some indicators are 3-5 times above normal. She lost more than 10 kg and almost stopped eating. The attending nephrologist prescribed new medicine, and cancelled some that she were taking. And appetite came back to her yesterday, for the first time for a long while.

I try to work, although I know I'm not good at it now. Besides, it's still terribly cold, +14 in my apartments, and I so much look forward for spring to bring some warmth.

I have read all posts and articles on my feed about the feeling of guilt and such, cried my tears, and hopefully feeling better. They say (and I agree) the only result that can satisfy is victory. Therefore, we are living in a "bad stress" now, and it's wrong to expect maximum productivity from yourself. Today, I saw an opinion of someone from US that war will lasts years, and felt cold horror. Then... I say to myself that they all were wrong in their expectations when it started, so maybe they are wrong now too.😨