My Wartime Diary.. The Mysterious Russian Soul

Is there an ethnic group in the world that hates the nation to which you belong? Maybe your answer is yes. And what are they capable of in their hatred for your nation and state? Can you imagine that the hatred for your people is so strong that they can ... here you say - start a war. No, not at all.

Today, for the first time, there will be a post without my face. Instead, I want to share my thoughts and my pain, as a reflection of the face of russian war.

Now, after the liberation of many cities and people from invaders, there are videos of evidence and testimonies of survivors. There are telephone conversations of the occupiers with relatives in russia, intercepted by the our Security Service. These are all documented facts. The endless stream of pain mixed with hatred.

author Vika Krokhina, 1st year student

Shootings of peaceful protest rallies in occupied cities. Shootings for holding the flag of your state.
Shootings of humanitarian corridors.

Robbery of humanitarian aid collected by volunteers for civilians. Antibiotics for the wounded, antipyretics, insulin, cancer patients. Shut-ins and their relatives who did not abandon them. There were those who abandoned and escaped, and survived.

Robbery. Total destruction. Undisguised, senseless, aimless, ruthless, just for fun.
Shootings for fun. Starving. Targeted hunting for teachers. Killing of pets and domestic animals. Destruction of museums. People who have seen this all ask the same question - why?! for what!?

Photo from the town of Bucha. Source on FB

Firing squad of civilians, their hands tied.
The dead bodies of people who lie on the streets or in shot cars for many days. Or in the school yard. Bodies are mined.

Parts of children's bodies.
Elderly people shot.

Bodies of people eaten by hungry dogs in the blockade of Mariupol. This is not a figure of speech.
Hundreds, thousands of bodies covered with sand on the playground in the yard of his own house, with notes on date of death and name. Because sand is easier to dig. And these are not footage from the "Criminal Minds."

Raped women. Some of them were killed.
Shooting at the feet of fleeing girls. Soldiers are having fun.

Torture, keeping in cold basements at sub-zero temperatures, several days without food. Toilet right there. Vibrant stench, cold and unsanitary conditions.

Mined children's bodies, mined toys, mined pasta packaging.

Burnt bodies of the occupiers. With children's toys in the backpacks. What were they going to say to their children about these toys? Who will these children become when they grow up?

Why guess. Watch interviews with ordinary Russians. They openly call Ukrainians second-class people. Not only Ukrainians, but also Tajiks, Kazakhs, Uzbeks, Moldovans, and all indigenous peoples of their country. They never hid their disregard for the Americans or the Poles or the Germans. It's just that Ukrainians live closer and contrast the most. And the most disobedient, as it turned out. And they consider our territory their own. Why? They do not bother with arguments for these beliefs. They think so because their leader said so. Because they can afford to be.

Can such people be considered fascists? And the Nazis? What do you think?

Robbery, with the killing of civilians, is an official incentive. The main problem of the looting soldier is that the loot was not taken away by a senior officer. In order not to take risks, they send the loot from the territory of Belarus by express delivery service.

Burnt trucks loaded with washing machines, TVs, phones, tablets.

During telephone conversations, looters brag about their achievements to mothers, wives or brides. Their loved once listen without surprise, calmly, sometimes with pleasure, looking forward to see "gift".

"What is the size of our son's shoes? Oh, I think I found it."

The looters have opened a bazaar of loot in Belarus, this is their Tortuga.

Now imagine that this happened on the outskirts of the city where you were raised. In the city where you live today. On the streets of which you walk every day. How do you feel about the people who did this?

I gonna ask you. Do you believe in the success of negotiations with this ethnic group?

Do you believe that only Putin is to blame for the war?

The concept of "The Mysterious Russian Soul" appeared in the second half of the 19th century under the influence of the philosophy of the works of leading Russian writers such as F. M. Dostoevsky and L. N. Tolstoy. Their books, popular in Europe as well, were dominated not by the aesthetic (as in the West), but by the ethical principle, which satisfied not entertaining, but moral needs. russian wiki.

Afterword

I talked to a male colleague who is now in Germany. I don't know how he managed to leave Ukraine. Probably because he is still a citizen of Moldova. I recall, before the war he said that we do not value our freedom, which we have here in Ukraine. And yesterday he said that he feels a betrayer because he left. Although, he and his wife were really frightened. And I ... I also remember my fear. But that was another fear. It couldn't make me run away, but it made me angry. It was a new feeling for me. To say yes and let a loved once go to war without knowing what will happen to him or to me tomorrow. And to stay at home, completely alone, not fully understanding why. And a few days later I realized that I might be helpful. This is what helped me hold on - the realization that I could do something for people of country.

Today they said that the all Kyiv region has been liberated. One by one, residents return, small businesses starts working. In the first days it was really nice to see, and I was happy. And now I feel like a traitor. I'm useless here. Because I am safe, but the war is not over, and it must be ended as soon as possible! While I'm here, far from places where help is needed. It is very difficult to be safe and just look for something online and transfer money, and there is nothing more I can do. Probably the first time, I regret not being born a man...