I actually like everything about myself else I would be saying the creator didn't create me in his perfection.
There are however a few things I think I could improve on.
First, I don't know how to focus my eyes. This thing is something I don't normally discuss and have never spoken to anyone about it. It has affects me in too many ways. I can't look someone in the eyes without my eyeballs rolling. It has affected my confidence and my relationship with people. You my not understand this until you meet me. It's one of the reasons why I think I may not succeed in a relationship. I've had ladies come close me but I've never thought it wise to start a relationship because of the fear they wouldn't like me after while. This is my most pressing issue. It's been like this for since 2007.
Also, I don't know how to express love and passion. I feel like my emotional triggers have been removed, that's if they even existed in the first place. I could be either someone bereaved and lack the right words to say. Even when someone is happy, like he's won something, I can't express joy to the point that it seems geniune.
I think these things are peculiar with me. It's the reason why I think no one will understand and that's why I'm seriously considering being alone, till forever.
I love doing things alone and it's affecting my relationship with my friends and partner. I find it difficult asking someone for help, even when I know I needed the help seriously. I've tried to cure it several times by talking to my partner more about my needs but after a while, i would just revert back to my previous state of doing things alone.
The truth is that I didn't even notice that I'm behaving that way until my wife complained about it. She said I don't trust her that is why I don't share my issues with her. I had to start assuring her that I truly trust her and that such behavior just happen unconsciously without any prethought. Though I'm working on it and I believe with time that I'll be free to share my challenges with those dearest to me.
Whatever life has shown me in this limited capacity to focus like seventeen years, I regard it. My adventure might be not awesome finally but rather its brimming with stories to tell. I never abandon a chance to learn and develop.
My teachers,parents and companions think of me as high at good qualities . This is on account of I've constantly attempted to gain from the basic encounters of my life to form it into something awesome sometime in the future.
I don't have any single closest companion in my classroom to make up for lost time with, however everybody regard me. They guarantee that they don't talk anything inadmissible before me.
My educators have dependably trusted my words. They discover me fair and honest . One of my educators told that he doesn't have any issue setting up our inquiry papers before me since he realize that I would not move my eyes towards it.
My mom has left the town numerous a times disregarding me at home in view of my tutoring. What stressed her was just my security . She had full confidence(and she has it today also) that I won't do any wrong in her nonattendance.
My folks have never stressed over my examinations. I have dependably been capable and self spurred. They realize that I can organize betterly.
What's more, this is the best thing about me. My development at such an age and unquestionably my ethics.
I actually like everything about myself else I would be saying the creator didn't create me in his perfection.
There are however a few things I think I could improve on.
First, I don't know how to focus my eyes. This thing is something I don't normally discuss and have never spoken to anyone about it. It has affects me in too many ways. I can't look someone in the eyes without my eyeballs rolling. It has affected my confidence and my relationship with people. You my not understand this until you meet me. It's one of the reasons why I think I may not succeed in a relationship. I've had ladies come close me but I've never thought it wise to start a relationship because of the fear they wouldn't like me after while. This is my most pressing issue. It's been like this for since 2007.
Also, I don't know how to express love and passion. I feel like my emotional triggers have been removed, that's if they even existed in the first place. I could be either someone bereaved and lack the right words to say. Even when someone is happy, like he's won something, I can't express joy to the point that it seems geniune.
I think these things are peculiar with me. It's the reason why I think no one will understand and that's why I'm seriously considering being alone, till forever.
I love doing things alone and it's affecting my relationship with my friends and partner. I find it difficult asking someone for help, even when I know I needed the help seriously. I've tried to cure it several times by talking to my partner more about my needs but after a while, i would just revert back to my previous state of doing things alone.
The truth is that I didn't even notice that I'm behaving that way until my wife complained about it. She said I don't trust her that is why I don't share my issues with her. I had to start assuring her that I truly trust her and that such behavior just happen unconsciously without any prethought. Though I'm working on it and I believe with time that I'll be free to share my challenges with those dearest to me.
My qualities.
Whatever life has shown me in this limited capacity to focus like seventeen years, I regard it. My adventure might be not awesome finally but rather its brimming with stories to tell. I never abandon a chance to learn and develop.
My teachers,parents and companions think of me as high at good qualities . This is on account of I've constantly attempted to gain from the basic encounters of my life to form it into something awesome sometime in the future.
I don't have any single closest companion in my classroom to make up for lost time with, however everybody regard me. They guarantee that they don't talk anything inadmissible before me.
My educators have dependably trusted my words. They discover me fair and honest . One of my educators told that he doesn't have any issue setting up our inquiry papers before me since he realize that I would not move my eyes towards it.
My mom has left the town numerous a times disregarding me at home in view of my tutoring. What stressed her was just my security . She had full confidence(and she has it today also) that I won't do any wrong in her nonattendance.
My folks have never stressed over my examinations. I have dependably been capable and self spurred. They realize that I can organize betterly.
What's more, this is the best thing about me. My development at such an age and unquestionably my ethics.