That's just the way life is, you can't blame it on anyone or anything, because many times we don't realize what we do to earn what we do, sometimes it's deserved and other times it's not but it just happens, I'll tell you my story, life hit me very hard when I had my first child, it turned out to be autistic, and this just happened, for no apparent reason, it's something that happens, and it cost me a lot to understand that, because I always wondered why, I understood that it only happens, and all this is art of life, the issue here is the attitude with which you face life, always willing to fight, as a soldier in war, and I assure you that you'll be better off, it's a matter of attitude.