Like Earth Losing Gravity

A gust of wind blew a charm that made my body more comfortable leaning under a banyan tree that was precisely located at a distance of 10 meters from the front of my classroom door. I do not know what I'm doing here, I do not understand. I'm just trying to find a calm for myself who is depressed due to remedial math! Who does not know mathematics? Maybe for some people it is a very fun lesson. But for some people ... maybe just as an extra burden in his life, and one of the thousands of people who do not like it is me. I did not like it, but what was the result of the ingrained intentions, finally when I wanted to learn it and curiosity about it all, but the results I got never succeeded and always got a disgusting value !! I do not understand why? Am I not studying it seriously? If that's the case, it seems like lately, I'm the most diligent person to learn it, and to the point that I'm ignoring other lessons. I'm annoyed with myself !!! God ... what is this punishment? Is this a curse for me?

"Kanza, Come on down! It's 6.45 wib. Later you're late dear! ". I heard a typical scream of alarm every morning. yes ... it's my mother's voice, which every morning always called me to get off my 2nd floor, and go to school. As I began to descend the stairs, I immediately remembered the math lesson, I suddenly felt very lazy to go to school.
"Kanza! down darling, Let's have breakfast ... "For the fourth time the mother called me. "Yes, Mother, just a moment." It's so hard to hurry from this room. But, surely the mother has prepared breakfast for me. With a little lazy step, I approach the Mother with my suitability.
"Kanza, the spirit of dong Nak ... You are so messy? Child Mother must look beautiful and full of spirit ... Come, where's the smile? "Mother tried to cheer me this morning. Slowly stretch the frown on my forehead.
"Daddy, Mother ... Kanza leave first yes ..."

Picking up my favorite bike was laced right next to my dad's car. Today I tried to turn my old habits to go other ways than the way I used to go. I saw the dew greet the rice fields, cool. Instantly the math lesson was lost in the frown. The freshness of the morning made me lullaby. As I was about to reach the school gate, I noticed that from the distance the school gate had started to close. I increased my speed.
"Sir, please! do not close it first !!! "I shouted long on my paddle. My breath collided with my heartbeat. I parked a bicycle that was a special gift from my father and mother, on my birthday 3 years ago. Exactly when I was 16 years old.



"Teeet ... teet ..." The bell came in. But I decided not to enter the class, and chose to stay on one of the benches in the corner of the hall near my class. My thoughts branched out about mathematics, making me lazy to follow the lesson. "It's impossible just because math I skipped?" Suddenly flashed into my mind the UKS room. "But Mr. Andre?" If I skipped, I would not be able to see his passion and tenderness as he taught. He is different from other teachers. "But why should he teach Mathematics? The annoying lesson !!! Aaakkhh !!! "my mind was screwed. I left the bench as a silent witness to my emotional overwhelming this morning. And UKS is my goal now! by pretending to be sick I could avoid the math lesson. However, upon arriving at the door of UKS my mind changed 180 degrees. I feel better leaving, although I do not know where to go. I rushed to the place where about 15 minutes ago I parked my favorite bike. Even though I know the incoming bell rang, my pace is incapable to stop.

Climb back my bike, kukayuh tight and towards the direction that I myself did not know where to go. With tears streaming down my face, and an endless sense of regret to myself. The knees of my feet stopped at the remnants of this morning's dew. I approached a hut made of straw and wood. I sat staring at me as I watched mom and dad shake the bells of the birdsmith. Their vulnerability does not dampen his spirits. I saw the children running on the border of the rice fields. While carrying yarn, bait and play kites. The spirit radiated from their faces. My heart burns. Feel my lost spirit. "Why am I never good at math?" I'm embarrassed! I want very good math ... Even father and mother know my weakness about math. But I want to show them if I can. Unfortunately, I still fail. I'm upset and disappointed with myself !!!

Dew drops began to wet my cheeks. Suddenly, my phone vibrates to see an incoming message. Message from Vika, my best friend since junior high. Touched hearts to remember he who always encouraged me, strengthen me to never despair in any case, including about math lessons. He never despairs to teach me with patience and willing to spend his time for me, though as busy as any activities he has. Slowly I began to open the message from her: "Assalamualaikum ... Kanza, where are you? Why did not you go to school today? Are you sick or what? "I ignore to reply. Then a ring rang again. "Vika" is on my phone call list. I ignore the ring. Again and again rang. Vika's curiosity about my absence at school. I can not bear to let him. I decided to answer it.

"Hello, assalamualikum ..." I said. Greet weakly.
"Walaikum Salam. Kanza, where are you? what is the reason you are not present at school today? Are you sick? "Vika asked. I intend to lie. However, I can not bear to lie with my best friend.
"No, I'm not sick. Mathematics complicates mine. "I replied in a flat tone.
"Oh god Khanza ... And now where are you?" The tone of anxiety implied from the intonation of his question.
"I am in a place where I can forget my saturation. You do not have to worry, I'm fine .... "The phone was disconnected.

Ten minutes passed. Suddenly a hand hit my shoulder. I jerked back. It turned out to be Vika. "Hey Kanza! You forget me, you leave me, While I always wait for your cheerful face ". He grasped my hand tightly. Vika tried to calm me down, gently stroking my shoulders, and slowly his soft fingers wiped my tears. "Istighfar Kanza ... I know you are thinking things out of your control. But this is not the right way to solve the problem. You can not be math or you are not a person who does not have any ability in any field. Just maybe you are less effort. Kam ... "Not finished Vika talking, I had earlier cut it," Vika enough !! I want to drop out of school. There's no point in me going to school. I can only nyusahin, and no one I can take a bit of myself for others! I'm not like you Vika !!! and I can not possibly be as smart as you, even as wonderful as you are. You can easily tell me the word CAN to me, but do you know the pain behind fighting for what you think I can ?! "I do not know what made me able to speak that bold to him. But that's Vika, the best friend I've ever found. He just stared at me with that shady eyes, trying to understand my current condition.

Five minutes passed quietly. and now Vika again trying to solve the silence between us. "God created human beings with different abilities, and we are the ones who have to hone our own skills. God knows what we need, Kanza ... Breaking up is not the right way to avoid failure. Try your flashback backwards. Long ago, when you baby you can not nothing? Then you grow into a toddler who starts to walk, with a process called learning. Did you learn just enough once you could walk right away? No Za !!! Surely by then you've fallen, fallen again, and fall again, until maybe from parts of our body there are injured by the process. But finally, you can walk with agile, even run any can. And one thing you must know, the learning process is not easy. and it will never be difficult if we do it seriously. Learning from the worst experience is better Za ... So, when one day we try again we will know where we should fix it. One more story deh I tell you, you know THOMAS ALFA EDISON? He was someone who first found the light to illuminate the darkness of the world at night, and do you know? he also never failed !! The thing you need to keep in mind in mindset is that people who are successful today also start from a failure that eventually makes them rise again! Including Thomas Alfa Edison also failed, and failed to 999 times za ... But, what he did? he was a bit, and kept trying again. Do you imagine if he is desperate and stops at level 999? We will not know the same lamp! "

I was speechless as I heard Vika's words. "Vika ... but I do not know what talent I am? and you know, until now I never said to my father or mother if every math exam I always remedial, and got a very embarrassing value once. I'm afraid Ka ... I'm afraid they're disappointed. I'm afraid !!! "My confession poured back on him. But he just smiled and came back holding my hand "Kanza, you have talent, must have! Only you do not know more deeply in yourself, so you can not measure how far your ability. Once again remember Za ... there is no human being that Allah created without ability! Humans are the most perfect creatures that God created. Kanza my best friend, your parents are educated parents. Which is not possible to judge you into a child who can never boast of them. Maybe you do not banggain them from the academic side. Enough with good character, your obedience to God, it's already more than enough for them. Your parents include successful people, you try to ask, have not they failed even once only? Kanza ... someone has not been said to succeed if it has never been rasain whose name is FAILURE, even though it is one more !!! ".

I was given an injection that made me rise again at this time. I hugged him back, and said, "Are you sure I can get up again Vika? If you are convinced, help me to make it happen, help me to really be a successful person with a failure that I will end today! I promise, will move to a better direction !! and I guess I'm pretty unsuccessful today !! and I will try as much as any effort I have to do! Do you want to be faithful to help me? "
"Khanza ... While God still allow me to live, and still be allowed to stay with you, I will accompany you, teach you the science that God entrusted in my current brain to you Kanza, God willing! Already, do not be sad anymore. Day is getting day Za, surely you have not eat right? Now we go home, do not forget zuhur solat when you get home later ... "Vika and I turned around to take each bike and then leave the park with a different direction home, because our home is not unidirectional.

Several months later ...
As per the promise I've said about 6 months ago, right now I'm starting to change my life. more active learning, including more active to try to recognize myself, assisted by Vika ... I occasionally complained and started to feel bored with all this. But still my friend reinforced me with various things that then make me re-excited again. But it's true ... when the process of trying I did find millions of obstacles, but I just assume it's all a game that I have to solve immediately, and finally ... I was able to finish it guys !!

I remember the last 6 months had been the biggest failures for me, which I now buried deeply in the sense of laziness, and with the encouragement of my best friend. Vika. I was able to realize the dreams that had buried first, because I think I can not afford to make it happen. Today is the day we have been waiting for for the past 3 years until now that day becomes real. yes, the graduation announcement from high school level. And to my surprise I heard that I was voted 2nd place after the first was Vika, becoming the best graduation student of 1631 students in my year this year. I swear, it's ... I do not know until I can not describe it through words.

I stepped forward with pride mixed proudly on the Podium. And also, I am the one who today received the best value award for all the students of UN this year in the academic field that is MATEMATIKA !!! Now I realize I have more abilities, and more than I do. it's just that I need enough time to sharpen it, and make it a real dream. I immediately hugged my parents who pinned a medal around my neck, which they can no longer afford to stem the tears of our hearts today.

Finally ... I can !!! I can make them happy with my ability, Thank God Allah ... I also forgot to embrace my friend Vika closely. who has also sacrificed much for me, and he is the person who is also a source of encouragement for me, I congratulate him for he is also a student who received the best value award of all schools located in this city, which also in the academic field with subjects IPA. Now it seems like we are both like a collection of stars that work together to create a beautiful night atmosphere. I felt the ukhuwah very attached to us. "Thank you vika ... you are the one who is able to make me migrate back to goodness, and now I am grateful for the fruit of my work so far" I muttered to myself as I looked into his eyes. "O Allah ... do not ever remove this beautiful ukhuwah pleasure from us ... keep us in your shelter ya Rabb ... because I feel I without it is hollow" as the earth loses gravity ".