I made a few edits for your article, to save you some time:
" I was excited to finally earn abuse some good earnings charity"
"I knew that the system will be abused was already being abused by me"
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"I had some deep realizations."
Ah, once you got caught. What a coincidence!
"I can't think of any other situation worse than this."
Think harder.
"I want to make it up all of you in any way I can."
You could have started by payout-declining this post, but what a surprise, you didn't!