Staying Stable, Staying Grateful

Virginia Beld, Megan Jones
Letters to Daniel

Dear Daniel,

I've been productive but I feel like I'm on a see saw. Okay as long as my hands are moving, struggling when I stop to rest. It's an odd thing having bipolar disorder during the pandemic.

I miss the simple things that made my life rich. Hanging out with Missy #1. Going to Starbucks. Going to the movies. Going out to eat. I did that 3 to 4 times a week. I would go to the park with my dad.

But everything is starting to open up. But I worry. A vaccine is 12 to 18 months away-and that's if everything goes right. What if there's a huge spike this fall and makes all this sacrifice for nothing.

It's nice that things are opening up for my birthday but even that will come with constraints. Wear the mask for god's sake. I'm not wearing mine for me, but I'm wearing it for everyone else's benefit.

We shouldn't be in pro-work versus people trying not to get sick camp. That being said it's okay to be cautious and also worried about where the rent is coming from.

My challenges with this have been mostly psychological. Even with businesses opening up the to the public I deal with fear and anxiety. My stomach is out of sorts so I have to go see a GI specialist. I have no doubt that my anxiety is compounding my gerd issues.

Today was a good day. I got out of bed and wrote a chapter. Wrote the interview questions for tomorrow's show. And now I'm here penning a nightly letter to you. You're a million miles away and haven't got a clue as to who I am, but I'm of who you are and maybe one day I'll get to meet and thank you for the impact you had on my career.

Sincerely,

Amy McCorkle

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