Sorry brother @yourdudenewt, I do not have enough power to help you. It is not that I feel pity for you but I think I know exactly what you've gone through. Same has happened to me and I used marijuana for about three years and nobody in my family knows about that. Still, I haven't been able to figure out how I can help my family with all of the things that they have gone through. This is why after reading your post I was instantly reminded of my past and wanted to help you somehow but as I said I do not have much steem power. BTW thanks for sharing, I have never tried magic mushrooms, but I have eaten the normal ones.