Your drawings have such a light and delicate touch. Really beautiful. I think I know exactly what you mean when you talk about wanting to do a thing, something creative, but also kind of not wanting to do it.
For me, it's almost like the thing that I know will open up parts of me and push me towards creating in a way that truly comes from the deepest parts of me... is also the thing I am most scared of doing.
For me, it's playing the piano.
Thanks for your post! I have added you to my latest post as a blogger I'm loving right now. :)
Thanks so much Johleen. I'm so pleased you like these drawings. I was hesitant in sharing them as the photographic quality is not all that good. But receiving your comment, I'm so happy that I did.
In drawing the first little leaf (unpublished) and then the shell for Octopus' Garden' the resistance that had been building up for literally decades was broken.
Now as I look at drawing again today, the apprehension can be felt once again. But now it's different as I know I've 'done it' and can 'do it' again.
It's true, that the very thing that will open us out to create what will give meaning and fulfillment to our being and lives can be the thing that brings up the most fear in us. So strange for it to be like this. But it does forces us to 'face our fears' and hopefully then become all the more creative AND happier for it.
I hope you will follow the heart strings of your piano and give it your ALL. 🦋