I would never use the word abuse in connection to any kind of deffinition for cosmic power. So, I didn't mean that deffinitely. But, if you consider the evolution of a soul as a proces that takes many life times, then the whole picture is different. In my praxis I used to have clients with Chron's deseaze, suffereing tremedeously. Offically, it is considered as on of deseases for which there is no cure. Still, working some hard themes together, he came to realization about the reason behind. He understood it, accepted it and worked it out. From that point on, the deseaze began to withdraw. It needed time to bring the pendulum in the middle, but his experience is now that it doesn't belong to the deseases with no cure, but to the power messenger that he couldn't ignore any more, like he did with some before it.
I do not want to put any doubt upon your personal experiences. It has only been my try to give some additional information that eventually can be helpful.
The site that can be helpful in this regard is the following: http://www.ourspiritualnutrition.com/is06.html