I always thought that I would be fine if I ever lost my "stable" job. That by being liberated from the daily routine, I will feel free. Yet, here I am barely able to focus on anything. I have passed the last few hours indulging into every single carb in my house and local market.
I am scared. I feel vulnerable. I feel trapped by this system. How will I be able to get out of paying all my debts? Yet, does it even matter if I pay them? Can I hop into a plane and start over again? Why can't I have that option that the elite have.
I opened the mailbox and the bills came in. Did I mention the job that fired me hasn't paid me in two months. I stayed thinking they would eventually pay me and would appreciate my loyalty to the company. The joke was always on me.
At this point, I have so many thoughts going through my brain, it's hard to stay in one topic. Yeah, I have loans, the worst kind of loan, the one that sticks to you like shit on your shoe....student loans. Will I ever be able to pay them back? not in this life time.
Yeah, I lost my job today.
Take a deep breath
Give yourself permission to feel whatever you need to feel
Then get up tomorrow and pound the pavement until you find another job
Let us know where you are and what your background is and maybe someone here can help you
Hi,
Thank you. I am breathing again.
Hi,
I listened to you and took a deep breath. I am happy to report that I found a better job. A job that has allowed me more time to focus on me. Thank you for your kind words.
That's great! I'm so happy for you, and especially happy that you found a better job that gives you more time to focus on what is important!
Wow thats one heck of a first post! Sorry to hear it. It's a pain in the ass but you find another one. Dont let it get you down.
Hi,
Thank you for that. Yes, I will not let it get me down.
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