I found this on instagram and though it was a really cool idea to deep dive into 2022 and reflection!
How have i grown in the last year?
- i find i struggled throughout the spring & the summer, but by the time fall came around... i think my personal well being and self growth flourished! After months of decluttering and continuing to, i found my mind works better when there is less stuff, more of things that truely make me happier. I found a sense of difference when it came to my clothing choices. I started actually dressing like the countless instagram photos i would like, or the pinterest pins that i would save. The things i thought i could never pull off, but made me happy that one day i might be able to pull it off, then my now husband, encouraged it, and finding a new sense of myself thru clothing and makeup and accessories has brought out the true best of myself.
What have i learned about myself??
- i have learnt that you literally are not going to please EVERYONE, and by everyone i mean your mother ;) do the things you want to do, be the person you want to be, get that tattoo, go on that trip, be yourself and prove to noone but yourself, you can do anything you put your mind to.
What is working in my relationships, and what areas need more attention?
- having less humans in my life is somthing that is working in my life. Focusing on the ones who reciprocate, focusing on the ones whom give a fuck. I use to, up untill recently, go my entire life thinking i needed to be friends with certain people in my life, even my family life, but learning that life doesnt end when things dont work out, you learn, you progress, you find the magical ones in the end.
Somthing that needs more attention in my relationships with humans is, not telling every little thing to everyone. I always feel the need to right away, run and tell others thing that happen in my life, leaving our mystery and suspicions. Being more private, people value you, you more, sharing everything will be a massive hault in my 2022 life.
Which unrealistic expectations will i let go of this year?
- diet culture. I went my entire life yo-yoing diets. All of them, you name it, i did it. Some worked, some didnt, some made me happy, some made me miserable. Trusting my body in a sense, fueling myself with what my body needs and recognizing it is somthing that speak volumes to me. I do calorie count, but i dont restrict any food ever. If i want it, i have it. Striving to fit in my size 3, early 20s box of clothing i still have.... has left the building and will be there for my daughter in the future.
What will i stop pressuring myself to do?
- i will stop pressuring myself to be a certain number on a scale. That number doesnt difine me. Doesnt define who i am. Doesnt define literally... anything. Working on feeling good, nourishing my body in the ways i personally feel it needs is where i beed to be. No weight loss goals, only healthy feelings allowed.
Where in my life am i willing to be less critical and more compassionate?
- this one is an obvious one for myself and anyone who knows me, but is one of the hardest things to overcome and will take so much healing.
------- stop saying your fat -------
------- stop shaming yourself for the way you look--------
------- stop hitting yourself for the way you look-------
These things i have been saying and doing everytime i look in the mirror, everytime i have a bad day, saying them not only to myself, but to my spouse, every day.
.. multiple times a day.
I need to love me. To be happy with me. To be happy with the current me, not the past me, or the present me. The current me.
I encourage you to feel the same.
I encourage you to answer these questions, and open up your mind.
Xoxo,
Mm