Oh Maverick, man I don't know what you are going through that makes you consider suicide an option. I can't claim to understand any of it but I just want you to know that life, despite its pains, can be beautiful.
You are a kind man and I count you among my friends here on steemit. Don't let the pressure of living get to you please. Hold on some more, there's always light even in the darkest of storms.
Please do get better. I hope to see you around on discord soon, chatting, helping, loving, living. If you want to talk, i am willing to listen. I love you man, be safe.
Thank Warped it means a lot to have been said that. I truly want to see the beauty of life but all I see are the disappointments of having fought for it. For caring about others.
Life has not been kind to me.
Hopefully i see something that will spark the will to live again