Well, we hope something will come out of your skills. Remember, there's always different ways, not everything is bad. Yet, we can imagine the fashion world is a 'fake it until you make it' mentality. We hope you get to live the life that you want to. Also, we would like you to check out @yasminep as she is a founder of a slow fashion label (called 'HUX') based in Malaysia/U.K. - could be a good connection, if you are seriously thinking of going down the environmental/eco-conscious fashion route. :)