Thanks for sharing your story. I am sorry to hear that being gay affected you in such a way that you felt it was necessary to cut yourself. I hope that one day you will see that you are just fine the way you are, and that cutting yourself is completely unnecessary.
It is a little bit different story, but you may enjoy reading my "coming out" article. I struggled with some of the same things that you did.
https://steemit.com/tag/@timcliff/finding-a-balance-between-being-out-and-accepting-other-people-s-uncomfortableness-with-being-gay
So good to hear you are family! Esp since I like your blog articles. One thing missing in Steemit is LGBT voices... good to know I am not alone.
I'll read it!
Also, I didn't cut myself because I felt bad about my orientation. Don't worry and thank you for your comment! Keep steeming!