Let's talk about how hard you try to be better, to feel better

Let's talk about how hard you try to let go and move on, but everytime you try to open a door, you still find yourself stuck in the same room you are trying to run away from. Let's talk about how hard it is to breathe when you feel like you are drowning in dry land. Let's talk about how hard you try to be someone better, only to find out that every time you try to look at the eyes of the people you love, you can see the reflection of the person who destroyed you. Let's talk about the fact that I have been dying to talk to you about these things, and how that everytime I open my mouth, nothing comes out, and I choke on the words I have been dying to scream out.