Nothing is sick when it has the illusion of fixing the underlying problem. There is an underlying issue, that is psychological in nature, I have no doubt about it. I am curious about your personality traits and other things about you besides your appearance. How are your relationships in general? What kind of friend are you to other people? If I ask too many questions, sorry. I had an eating disorder as a teen and was really warped in my mind, so I have lots of experience with this stuff.