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RE: Assigning Too Much Value To The Reward

in #life5 years ago

Wow! I love it!! Terrible foresight. Great hindsight. You are spot on about everything! Like a mirage, it always looks like something different from afar, but the closer you get, the more your initial illusion gets crushed;)

You’re sweet! That is such a great question! Sadly, my memories revolving around my dancing journey are tinted with a lot of sadness and pain. I started dancing at 4-5 years old, and in high school I was in a private school that had a dance program. We would dance everyday and had courses to take after school. It wasn’t initially meant to be competitive, but the competition was there anyway. It’s interesting because ballerinas make it look easy on stage, but there’s a lot of work that goes into it. It’s really a demanding sport. My teenage years were extremely hard for me, and I ended up developing an eating disorder which affected tremendously my ability to perform all the sports I was practicing at the time, including dancing. I picked up a lot of dysfunctional coping mechanisms from my dancing years actually. For the first time in my life I faced rejection (I had no friends in my dance program) and that really took a huge toll on my self, especially because in high school you get “judged” for that kind of stuff. I’m not sure I really answered your question:P but ya still to this day I carry some scars from that time of my life and it’s one of the reasons that led me to quit.