I am so sorry for your loss. You are a special soul @surpassinggoogle. I have been following your journey here - I don't call you to my posts because others need your love more than I, but I cheer for you. You are doing the world some good in your way - and your mama raised you very well. Take your time if you need it. And keep strong if you can. And when you're ready - come back to steemit and we will embrace you with open arms.