This is incredibly tender. Thank you for sharing so deeply. I'm floored by the beauty with which you write (even in your journal!) and grateful to you for letting others know we are not alone in our struggle to survive. New favorite quote: "Depression has a way of making a person believe they are incapable of swallowing – that spitting out the remedy is both easier and safer somehow. Choosing self-preservation becomes an act of exceptional courage."
Thank you @shawnamawna – it pleases me greatly to know that my writing is reaching those who can appreciate it. I felt pretty bold as I wrote those final words, yet also crystal clear as to their truthful relevance.
It was pretty scary to publish this piece. It's sincerely the most raw, honest piece I've ever shared... anywhere. For the most part, I've been bolstered by the response. However, having just had grumpycat flag me for using a bid bot that he disapproves of...to boost a post that I believe deserves it, regardless of post age – it makes me reluctant to continue sharing in this way.