Your novel length comments make me jump up and down in excitement @byn. Not even kidding. I feel like we are making a genuine connection here, and this is the internet where things rarely seem real. But your openness is is such a beautiful reflection of my own self-assessments, I am reminded that there is much good even when it isn't obvious. I'm not sure I can quantify the value of realizations like that, of not feeling alone in the struggle and seeing that there is joy ahead. Thank you for sharing of yourself.