This comment by @hope777, my hubby is @scotty777. All very true and insightful. The first time when I got depressed, by the time I was diagnosed I was down in a very deep dark pit. Thoughts of suicide was my companion everyday. It took me very long to see the light again. But I got good treatment and cognitive treatment. That help me to recognise the depression sooner and not allow myself to go that deep before seeking help. From 1990 till 2006 I was hospitalized 4 times. About once every four years. Since 2007 I do not get that depressed anymore usually just a bit melancholy for a few days and manage to snap out of it. It is a war with your thoughts instead of allowing yourself to become more and more negative you must try fight it. Renew your mind and let rational thought won the war! Thankful for that.