This was such a brave post for you to write and share here on Steemit. As a woman, I can definitely relate to the feeling of falling short of an external standard of beauty and consequently feeling less desirable and attractive.
I truly wish you the best and hope that writing about your struggle, and possibly even finding some of the advice posted by other men in a similar situation to be useful, will help you feel freed from your unwanted self-perception.
thanks i appreciate it , especially from a woman because many of them think im just being shallow. I know I am , but I wish I wasnt like this. I wish looks werent even a factor to me because I think they skew what I think of people.
Ah, that must be alienating to be considered shallow when really you're struggling to overcome self-consciousness, which isn't an indulgent process at all - it takes a lot of courage. Best of luck to you, my friend.
time in the best medicine and aging will remedy this issue...
or at least for most it does.