Keeping traction. Student internship. Part 16.

"If you're going trough hell keep going" - Winston Churchill.

Oh I am so sorry I am already 2 days late posting this...
I doubt anyone noticed but here we go anyways!

At work this week we had a amazing party. As you can see I took my "Polaroid" camera with me that is actually not really a Polaroid.

But I am getting ahead of myself. This week at work I kept walking into the same problems. I feel my advice is being ignored on all side's and I am missing a goal or information I need. I know that you can go find these things on your own initiative but my introvert side is not agreeing with this logic. I just can't make myself to spam people over and over until I got the right things I need for my work project. Instead I rather listen to music or check the Bitcoin going up or down.
Its not that I am lazy or not want to work. If someone asks me to pickup something or to do something or if I get a good deadline I would immediately do exactly as told. I just don't wan't to come up with giving myself assignments. I need to work on that. Maybe that is called laziness.

Anyways. Its hard times at work but also hard times at personal life this week. I've moved to a new place again and all the frustration that comes with moving and cleaning and sleeping on the floor because they already moved your bed out before you.

And dating is hard too. I am very new to the whole dating scene thing. And I have to learn on what to do or not to do in certain circumstances. I sometimes find myself getting to jealous to easily or panicking to easily when something happens. Because of my past and the people that have been in my past. I am suspicious of how bad things can turn how quickly. I am surprisingly good at telling my emotions and feelings on a phone message. But surprisingly bad at doing this on the spot in real life. Maybe that is because the subjects are intense and personal. Or maybe I need more practice.

Anyways I do not think I will be seeing my date again for a long long time. Maybe never. Luckily I don't feel like its all my fault as much as its the situation she is in and the timing we met. But its unfortunate anyways.

But.. this whole story I did not just write to feel bad about myself. I wrote this to show one of the banner designs I made.

But the party was great fun like I've wrote before. The weekend after was just a little time to rest and "keep going"
My date actually won the bingo game I organised and won a Samsung tablet which she gave to me. I regret accepting it.

I want to end the story of this week by saying I still think people with true good hearts exist and she might very well be one of those people.