All the negative thoughts, the things you feel you HAVE to fix right away which has led to this happening..

It's not true, you're both amazing and beautiful inside and out. You are such a hard working, determined and strong-willed girl, and if you focus on making yourself happy with what you have going on for you and personal growth without expecting you HAVE to do this and that, or this and that is not acceptable as an image etc, you will be okay.