Bro. Terry, do you know you already been helped by God. Mama shine will always be with her because she lived a fulfilled life. In case you don't know, you are one of the reasonn she lived a fulfilled life. You cannot stop from doing all that you need to do now because that is where your lifting is.
Mama is always with you, all you need to do is to look in ward and fulfill purpose as you've always wanted to.
You are not alone.