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I know dude, I may not be in the same boat but at least the same river. Prioritize energy where it is best distributed. It doesn't always have to be here contrary to popular belief.

This isn't for me. Like I said in the post, I'll never be able to be part of this Hive community stuff. I'm always naturally on the outside so the tighter that community stuff gets, the further I'll drift.

As for health, there is no energy. Have to deal with it alone as well. It's difficult to talk about, so I don't. It's something I couldn't comprehend until I gained experience, so I know trying to explain to others will lead nowhere, as it does when I try.

It's nothing personal. It's not as easy as I wanted it to be. And endless thought stream. But if I stick around I'll just make things worse. So I need to go, take care of myself and other things before that's gone too.

I get it about community alienation and clicks both online and daily life, the results on the brain and the drift. I feel a lot like that too around here, part of why I don't really bother posting anymore. Don't care enough to wine about it either. I get it. Thanks for clarifying further into into it. Obviously taking care of your health and mental health and whatever else should be a priority and anything that goes against that...well it is what it is...bye Felicia, self-care purpose...nothing wrong with that even if people don't understand.

I also know that people never get it, even when it's explained so clearly at times. Forgive them. People only comprehend on their own level of things. Sometimes trying to explain yourself over and over to nowhere can make one feel more alone. Talk about what you are comfortable with, find a way to mentally cope/digest in a healthy way for the things you can't change. Hardship = strength even if it doesn't always feel like it. I hope you find yourself on brighter days, keep yourself committed to that, whatever it is.

This was really good advice.

I wrote about a series of great mental health tool written by Don Miguel Ruiz and his sons, they are easy to find and read but full of solid advice to sort thru head bullshit you don't feel comfortable about or how to handle certain societal mental hurdles. They have a whole series between the 3 of them. 4 agreements is one, there is another about attachments, mastery of love is to learn about self love, enough to see ourselves thru. Might be too much light for you...just thought I would throw it out there...never know.