I've been thinking for a while where and how to start with this post and since I still can't figure it out, I'll just role with it. It been a weird 7-ish days for me, psychically/mentally. I don't even know how to explain it and I'm not even sure if I want to share it here. I went through the pretty much same things about 6 months ago and I wrote about it HERE.
I'm trying to figure out what the heck is going on with me. I feel like I'm all over the place and thorn between so many things within every aspect of my life. When it comes to Steemit, on one side I think I should take a break from online world in general but on the other side, I still want to make daily posts even though I don't really have inspiration.
May has been quite stressful and I guess that's where everything started, I guess I wasn't dealing with stress the right way. On top of that, I isolated myself from people in my life because I was easily irritated and just didn't really want to see, talk to or message anyone. I haven't seen my friends in a few weeks and rarely keep in touch with them. Last few days I feel like it's happening with you, Steemians as well. As bad as it sounds, I don't feel that excitement to read posts and communicate like always and it's weird because that's what I was looking forward every day pretty much from the first day I joined this platform.
So I don't know what else to say, I guess I should just get my s*it together and I should probably talk to someone about it (there's many things I never mentioned on Steemit so it's not just about the things I mentioned in this post) but at the same time I don't want to talk about it and it's again one of those "in between" situations. That's my little update and I hope you understand if I'm not around that much, interacting and communicating with you but I promise I'll make it up to you. :)
i hope you get better soon!
i dont know what have you been going trought but you know what always helps me? going outside and take a walk / run / exercise i make your body to produce endorphins that makes you feel better and think more clearly.
Thank you!
I will take that advice. It's a nice and sunny day here and I was actually planning to chill in my garden and get some sunshine. :)
staying in the same place for long time wont give you any diferent perspective of things
Sorry to hear you’re feeling like this.
I know i am unaware of what you are going through and cannot even imagine your situation.
I sincerely advice yiu to continue posting and i am sure this would make you feel lot better as you are sharing which would take oit atleast some of the burden you are carrying.
Cheer up buddy
Thank you for your kind words.
I am still trying to figure out what to do regarding Steemit, I wouldn't share personal things anyway so I might just take a break and deal with the current situation or post some random stuff.
I wish you a great day! :)
miss you sweetie😘😘
I'm still here on Steemit... sometimes. :)
focus on the breath. all there is
I'll try. Thanks for sharing this!
hugs @nikolina.
Just wanna let you know that I'm here...anytime..
love you always xoxo
Thank you so much, dear @sunnylife. <3
I've been missing you Nina.
Nina - lets chat in GV DM.
Bear Hugs for my dear friend.
I hope I'll be "back to normal" soon. :)
Hugs for you Papa Bear!
It makes me sad to hear that @nikolina
You seem like a positive, happy person but I guess we all have good days and bad. I know I do.
You are always one of the first people to meet and greet on the GV discord and your always very supportive and leave a good impression. If people are aware that you are feeling down I know they would want to help, especially because its you.
Hang in there.
Gaz
Thanks Gaz!
That's how I am for the most part but I don't feel like that anymore, I was trying to keep the positive attitude but it was almost like covering up the root of the problem, which I'm still trying to figure out what it is and this might take some time but that's okay.
All these kind comments and advice are very mich appreciated. :)
I guess you have to share the stuff you can share and figure out and work on the stuff that's private.
There's clearly a big group of people of here who care about you so that's not a bad start.
If I can help with anything just give me a shout. If you need me to do a silly dance, sing a song or do some juggling for you just say the word!! 😁 What ever you need.
i am going through the same sometimes , like i don't know where i am and i dont know what to do , feeling tired and wanna get out of this world sometimes. but my lovey @nikolina . you should remain strong , just talk to HIM , pray , he will definitely renew you and lead you the right way. you are beautiful and amazing , you might need to rest as well , get some well spent vacation, it would help a lot. love you!!!! ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you for all your lovely words and support!
I'm collecting all the advice from the comments and I will try them out and see what works best for me. One thing is for sure, vacation is always a good idea, hehe.
I hope you're doing well! <3
I don't really know how to explain that either, but that is how I've been feeling and it all started in May too and I still feel like that and just like you I was wondering if I should take a break from social media completely for at least a month and just like you I was thinking to write a post about it, because I really felt lost and just really, really down and scared because I really don't understand what it is and to hear that you are feeling the same way is just very strange.
I was even having hard time going out for a nature walk because I felt like something was stopping me, and it didn't make it very exciting for me to go out, which is very strange.
So the last few days, I've been trying to take it easy and even take a nap even though I can't even sleep really good right now either, but I think it is just the energy at least that is what my husband says. He is a strong believer in astrology and retrograde and powers and he says that it's just the energy and it will leave soon.
So I hope so. I try not to think too much about it anymore, just try to enjoy everything I do and I know it will pass and get better and just take it easy when I feel the need to and I believe this is what is happening to you too, but just know it will get better so try not to think of the negative and just really try to look for the blessings and the beauty.
I've been praying a lot lately asking God to help me figure this out and give me strength because I feel scared and confused and I'll be praying for you too my friend.
Wish I could be there with you so we could comfort each other and inspire each other because I know how you are feeling and it's not a very nice feeling, and for the first time I tried using the technique of thinking and keeping only the good thoughts in my mind today even if I had to make them up and not giving the bad thoughts any chance of entering my mind, and it really worked and I really started to feel better and I must say, my day was quite good.
Hope you will feel better my friend and you are in my prayers and like I said take it easy on yourself and don't let any negative things in your mind and remember the good things and think only of the good things.
We really are in control of our thoughts.
Sending you lots of hugs and kisses and beautiful, happy thoughts.
I can definitely relate to this. What scares me the most are the mood swings and thoughts. I know that we all have bad days but this time for me there's something different. I know how I feel when hormones kick in or when I'm having bad days because of something specific but to feel this way for so long without anything sprecific to attach to it, it's really scary.
But I think I'm on the right path to finding the root of this state. And I'm also losing enthusiasm for the things that usually get me excited. Or I do get excited and then like you said, it's like something is stopping me or it's like a cloud of dark thoughts come over me.
I'm glad to hear your days are getting better. I guess we should take one day at the time and focus on the daily improvement. I like what you said about focusing on the positive and not letting the negativity take over.
Lots of love for you, we will get through this! <3
Absolutely. We will get through this, my lovely friend.
I don't know how long this will last and it is so scary, but I have hope and like I said, everytime I feel the bad feelings coming or start feeling so discouraged, right away I get rid of those feelings and replace them with positive, and happy feelings because otherwise I don't know where I would be.
I'm not letting the devil in my spirit and he will not win, I will fight and defeat him with love and kindess and beauty.
I was just reading @avhyaceulip post yesterday and I love the quote she shared:
Every day may not be Good, but there is something Good in Every Day.
Keep fighting my friend. We got this. Step by step.
LOVE Conquers ALL.
Thank you ms. @joalvarez for sharing that wonderful quote,
After reading your post dear nina and all the comments here I started to think what's with May, why is it many of us are experiencing the same thing, cause I myself was feeling lost, having a hard time and feeling stress... But having wonderful friends here on steemit, especially my dear sister @zephalexia, mysponge for all of my stress, I felt like everything has its reason, the only difference between all of us, is how we look on each situation, I know It is hard, but finding something GOOD on every day will make us less stress and and happy.... Everything will ve fine dear nina..., 😘😘😘
It happens to me too from time to time. I dont know if it is stress or depression or both of them. Try to do things you like and listen to music. You should come out of the daily routine to feel better. Set a new goal and work for it. The excitement will help you come out of that state.
Thank you so much for this advice. I will definitely set a new goal I can work and focus on.
Keep holding on. I hope you can get out from that state soon 💗💗💗
It breaks my heart whenever I read something like this, because I know how it feels.
Thank you so much for your support. <3
Don't mention it 💗
Oh @nikolina! I just came across this post of yours and so sorry youre going through a tough time. Since this was written 14 days ago I hope that by now things have turned to the better... will get updated on your blog now! Have a positive week luv!😙