Very nice continuation. I've found your writings not only good but quite an interesting topic. I would imagine the use of the word "addiction" would denote it's ultimately going to be harmful or bad for you.

I usually would see addiction as a symptom of something else. In my experience i've found that body sensations and moments of pleasure. excitement are not who i am. As the observer i have these feelings but i am not those feelings. So i have a great seperation in that regard.

I feel that in a time where many things are conducted over a computer that yes there is a disconnection or " age of separation". Over an age of reunion. However, i would say that it's not porn that's the issue but connection. So in my journey connection is all about nonjudgment.

When you don't know if something is good or bad. You are often times less judgmental. if you're less judgmental your environment is generally less hostile. So you're usually going to be able to connect to that environment and people in it. Not so say that you're stating the environment is good or bad. To say we don't always need to make a binary decision. I would like to introduce a third option. The i don't know option. The i don't know if it's good or bad lol.

I find it intriguing you got off with someone whom you didn't think you could with. The person you wanted to get off with you didn't lol. I think that's due to the stories we designate to body sensations... Butterflies or tightening of the chest. Clinching of the jaw. All body sensations we designate stories to.

If you change the story of what they mean. You may begin to disbelieve your story. The sensation is only a body sensation until you give over to a story you believe about it.

You got off with the guy as you said. As he came to you with nonjudgment on polyamorous behavior. So the environment was less hostile i believe and more safe as you suggested. So at the core level maybe what we call "addiction" is just a symptom of stories we believe that may or may not be true.

If they are true maybe it's only because we believe someone can emotionally hurt us. However, the only way someone can emotionally hurt us is if we believe the story they tell. Or we create a story. No words of them can hurt us emotionally unless we believe the words. If you question the story it may fall apart, lol.

In short.. i don't think you are your body parts. It's nothing wrong with moments of pleasure and excitement i don't believe. So my thoughts are i can connect with anyone in a nonjudgmental way. i dont know if porn addiction is bad, lol. So i can connect to anyone anywhere for any reason. I dont think it means anything about me if i'm addicted to porn personally, lol. It's good or maybe not, lol. Or maybe i don't know. haha