Thank LL I truly thank you and all the crazy helpies that have come along and offered such nice words.

I hope that I can find my way back into wanting to live. At this moment all I can do is just wallow on self pity and on the pain of life disappointing me.

I don't know how I can get back again when it feels like such a deep hole without any hope.

I feel so broken that I can't be put back together again.