I genuinely had to laugh at the voice call hahaha How I needed that laugh.

Your words are a balm to my troubled soul FT and I have been hoping I could go back and be the same person I was a couple of months ago but i am having some trouble in believing in me again.

Its been quite some time since I have been active in any communities and even local ones that I have I have mostly disappeared.

I don't really know how I am going to be able to get around in getting better as therapy, talking and doing other stuff is simply not cuttingt it.

That is why I decided to end it but even that I couldn't do and now I am still alive with hospital bills to pay lol.

Sometimes I still wish I never woke up nor be sent to a hospital.