Now I understand where you've been! And you're right, life does have a deadline! I just wrote a post about motivation and I used to tell this to my students...perhaps it applies here?

We are all here to learn something new, AND to learn from our mistakes. There's no such thing as failure, because failure is only an opportunity to learn. There are no good excuses. But most importantly, there's neither need nor necessity to wallow in the trough of mediocrity.

Get 'er done buddy :) I've missed your thoughts, and I hope things 'lighten' up for you soon!