beeing a woman

After watching a Youtube Video from Soulpancake

 about how men see woman i was reminded about a lot of things.

First of i want to share this video with you, because i think its incredible and it brought me to tears. 

„sexism is a womans problem to deal with, but its a mens problem“

 To hear these words out of a mens mouth actually ment a lot to me.

 In the video they talk about woman getting sexually harrased and beeing pressured into having sex.

 as someone who as been sexually assaulted multiple times it felt good to hear men talk about these kind of situations from their view.

 when you find yourself in situation where someone is doing something to your body that you dont want or like you would think they notice but dont care.

 after listening to what these men had to say, i can now see a lot of situations of my life from a very different angle.

 it felt like a little bit of healing knowing that mabey not every aussault i have witnessed was motivated in a bad way.

 with beeing a woman come many restrictions, which i personally kind of like to overlook a little, which has brought in me in some tricky situations.

 not beeing able to walk alone at night, having to dress a certain way at certain places all these things are things woman are used to. we dont really learn them, nobody teaches us to not feel safe, but we do.

 i grew up in a so-called good neighborhood in a big city and didnt think to much of it when walking alone home at night. i always felt safe, even if i was dressed provocative. but meeting people and travelling has taught me that i cant do that everywhere. i am in luck to live in an environment where i can walk down the street alone.

catcalling.. well, i think a lot of people would agree that in the everyday life in germany we would have to call it catwatching.

 eventought woman espacially my age get catcalled alot, where i live its more of stare thing. and you notice.

 i catch myself walking down the street looking really angry and serious because i think it makes me look confident and that way i wont be cat called as much.

 but i dont like looking like that. i would prefer to smile at people, because beeing kind is important.   

i think to change the way of living as a woman we all need to work on these problems, men and woman.

while i dont think men are bad i any way, i think many dont realise what living a a woman is acutally like. 

 #checkyourboys 

 -L