I hear what you say and realise that spirituality comes in many colours, tones and hues.
I agree that manifestation is a process and personally feel that divine timing is at play. When I am ready things will slot into place naturally.
I also believe that selflessness is erroneous. To be of service a person has to be on top of their personal game. Martyrdom does not sit comfortably on my shoulders and I too think that the iconic portrayal of Jesus on the cross is a damning image to peddle.
I look forward to interacting with you further, appreciate your comment and upvote and wish you well.
xox
you are welcome - thanks! :)