October freewrite!

What’s up, Hive? I’m home and it’s pretty late. I’m trying to wind down. I’m under quite a bit of stress, and one of the healthiest parts of my routine is using Hive for freewrites. It gives me a chance to reflect on my life in the short term, and find some perspective. It’s journaling, really. A practice that I never did in my day to day life before finding Hive, but I’ve reaped the benefits of it since 2016. Money is really, really tight right now. “Bear market rules”, as @lovejoy always says. The guy is doing well for himself and treated me to our favorite restaurant. The conspiracy theory talk lasted just long enough to fit him with a tinfoil hat.

I’m use to pressure like this. In my 40’s, I’ve realized that my constant habit of filling any and all free time with a project is pathological. Downtime and free time seems to stress me out more than relax me. One of the consequences of that, though, is that occasionally, I overwhelm myself. I realize that I’m cornered in to an impossible mess of my own making. Right now, it’s particularly bad because the commitments I’m trying to make good on are for projects that I’ve already been paid for. An awful reality when I’m still currently broke.

One of the many grants I’m pursuing are with Helios, an EOS organization. They’re currently running an Ideathon, similar to a Hackathon, but just pitching ideas that can be formed, produced and launched on chain. Grants are real game changers for individuals and small teams, but this Ideathon legitimately gives me a chance to pitch some projects that’ve just been living in my head for years. I’ve talked with @lovejoy and @roadscape about social networks, NFT platforms and fractal governance methods of writing creative short stories.

While burning myself out and doing so with no money, I’ve been exploring more AI generated art with MidJourney. There’s been small opportunities to work on @neverwel and @mirrorpool projects. @neverwel should be launching next month, if all goes well. Immutable Realms’s first issue will be released in early October and that’ll alleviate a ton of stress. In mid-November, @tarotbyfergus and I will be going to Chicago for a death match wrestling tournament and that is something I’m really looking forward to. After that, I’m hoping for a chill end of 2022.